Courtney?

Okay this was frustrating and slightly over-whelming i decided to start a new blog a. because i’m tired of not having an outlet to write without feeling like i’m being judged and thats how i feel with myspace b. i doubt anyone will ever find this one the only person who i think might is mrs.allan but that’s okay

i have no idea what i’m doing on this word press thing but i guess that doesn’t really matter i’m so frustrated with my computer i really hope my parent’s claim that my new furniture is my only christmas present is completely false i really want/need a new computer so i can store all of my music without fear of my dad deleting my desktop

i hate periods i hate commas i hate semi colons would it be completely horrible if we slightly regressed in our grammatical patterns im so aggravated i feel like using every curse word i can think of but for fear of mrs.allan reading this i’ll pass i don’t have much inspiration tonight this is just general nonsense that no one should ever be forced to read

i have this idea that one day im going to write a book about my family i think it would win some kind of writing award honestly i could be an awful writer and it would still be a best seller but i’m sure everyone says that oh my family is this stereotype i think the interesting thing about my family is there are no stereotypes if you dont count the various addictions but ofcourse that sounds way to much like an overly-predictable movie and an overshare honestly i can see my character quite clearly i think michelle trachtenberg would play me and i would say it would be something similar to the royal tennenbaums but not nearly as good just a producer who’s trying to get back in the “biz” and found a c-list script and figured hey i’ll make atleast $100,000 maybe im degrading my familys value as an entertainingly-dysfunctional on screen family

anyway back to michelle trachtenberg so she’d be the nararrator(i cant spell) silently in the background of every situation with a notebook and pen in hand writing about how crazy her family was compared to how normal she was and of course the mother would find the notebook and have a breakdown and michelle would apologize and realize gee my family isn’t that bad aafter all maybe we’re actually normal! :O honestly my mom would most likely kill me if she read this so why am i writing it? because i’m tired of locking thoughts in my head so they torture me until they suffocate all of my other thoughts and control my days and my classwork (or lack thereof) and i tried a diary but im almost certain she reads that i dont think ive ever truely written my thoughts besides she found my myspace and wordpress hasnt become highly publicised so i dont think the likelyhood of her finding this is very great okay im tired of writing crap well not really but i need to do pre-calc homework and physics homework could someone please just put me out of my misery and assure me that working at burger king for the rest of my life isnt all that bad so i can drop out already

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it’s such a relief to let some things out